Joined: Oct 2005 Gender: Female Posts: 467 Location: eh! land
Re: Christmas!!!!!! « Result #1 on Dec 9, 2008, 11:37am »
I can't belive that the last post on here was over a year ago. Where did that year go?!
Nobody will probably see this. This poor, lost and forgotten board. And, under the General Board description, it says "you can talk about anything here..."
So here it goes. My own little private outlet where I can talk about anything. Are you ready for it? Probably not. Here are the words of my diary. The words that I cringe to write, but the words that I am living. And dying upon.
I can't do this. This school thing. I know they say that Universities are hard first year to weed out all the losers. I just didn't think ever that I would be one of those losers. And here I am! One of the failures. Need I explain more? Just mull it over. Anything you ever though of me as being. Aced high school like it was a colouring contest. And now, I am failing. Go for it. Just use this little tidbit of information and change your whole opinion of me. I've been expecting it anyways. What else can surprise me now?
I can't talk about school too much. It just makes me feel like throwing myself to the ground in tears and ripping my heart out with my bare hands. So let's just leave it at that, shall we?
Christmas is around the corner. I am looking forward to it, but I feel like a bad person for looking forward to something I don't deserve.
Thanks to all those who still love me. This isn't anythying dangerous. Just an outlet, no? I wonder who, if anyone, will find this. And who, if anyone, would even consider doing something about this? What factors would it entail? Probably the amount of time that has passed between my writing this, and the person finding this. And if that person has spoken to me since. And if that person is someone I talk to often. And if that person has changed thier opinion of me. So many factors. One I am sure of thought. Whatever happens, it can only get better right?
This is what I have been told. Things can only get better from here. I hope so. I also hope you don't change your opinion of me. I'm a good person. I just messed up. I made a huge mistake. Ok? Thanks.
Joined: Oct 2005 Gender: Female Posts: 467 Location: eh! land
Re: Would you Rather? « Result #4 on Nov 12, 2007, 7:00pm »
Hand cramps are no fun, but I like the look of a handwritten letter. It just seems more personal to me. If it's a lab or schoolwork though, I'd rather type it out. It's faster, and the teachers don;t care about being personal, they just want neat.
Joined: Aug 2005 Gender: Female Posts: 1,276 Location: Lindsay Ontario
Spruce Meadows « Result #11 on Sept 7, 2007, 12:57am »
Hey Guys!
So how's everyone!!! I get to text a few of you, and sometimes catch a few of you on msn..but not often enough!
So for the FIRST time ever I got to go to Spruce Meadows today!!! All the equine sciencer's got to go. It was so much fun! I'll put up pictures once I get them off Tiff's camera.
It snowed! Yes..seriously...for like over an hour today! They had to shut down the show for a while because the wind was so strong it kept blowing down all the fences. Than it got really hot out again
Miss you all! Finn's doing great! We're actually hopefully going into a show at the end of the month!
Send me an email sometime or post something on here! Or text/phone me! My number is 403-559-4740. Just remember you guys are 2hrs ahead of me
Joined: Aug 2005 Gender: Female Posts: 355 Location: Depends on the weather
Re: Reality Is Starting To Kick In « Result #12 on Aug 3, 2007, 11:34am »
I don't know what you are experiencing right now, as i am a free-loader this year, but once you get out there it will be better, and i will visit you next year with benny!
Joined: Aug 2005 Gender: Female Posts: 1,276 Location: Lindsay Ontario
Reality Is Starting To Kick In « Result #13 on Jul 31, 2007, 11:16pm »
For anyone else who is off to school or has went off to school, how the heck did you deal with the reality that you were leaving for school and leaving behind friends/family/daily life?
I leave in exactly 3 weeks today. This past week, I've went shopping, getting some of my residence stuff. I broke down in WalMart..sobbed the whole time we were shopping..crazy I know!! Than I spent last night at my Grandmas...and I go to leave this morning and I totally break down all over again and I cried there..all the way home and than like for an hour after I got home.
I NEVER cry...and today at work...my boss..who I'm really good friends with said she was going to really miss me...done...started crying all over again.
WHAT THE HELL!?! Its not like I'm leaving forever and I'm back at Christmas and I have tons of people coming out to visit me..and I try to get this through my head but the tears over take the will not to cry.
Hmm..can anyone enlighten me? I jsut pray that as the time get's closer this doesn't get worse...I don't think I can handle that.
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Joined: Aug 2005 Gender: Female Posts: 1,276 Location: Lindsay Ontario
Re: Schools out for summer!! « Result #16 on Jun 22, 2007, 5:07pm »
I'm done on Monday!
Working mostly. BUT a group of us are going camping..what a drunken week that will be haha. There's two birthday parties and than one goodbye/field party thing. A lot of partying haha.
I want to get my bike fixed and I think I might do some biking competitions (mountain). My cousins are doing it and need an extra for a team, so I'm pretty excited for that!
Riding, as much as I can as often as I can. I'm giving lessons starting next week (I think...) on Jewel until I get her sold. There's a few people again, interested in her but yet to hear back! Oh well, the whole family goes out and fuss's over her haha. I think she likes it! Especially my grandpa..he's always feeding her carrots and apples and petting her..even though he denies it...but whenever he comes near the fence she comes running up to it calling at him and than follows him haha!
So that's just about my summer...I leave for school the middle of August-ish. Depending on when the trailer leaves with Finn is when I go. But I'm starting a week earlier just to get familirized lol.
Joined: Aug 2005 Gender: Female Posts: 1,276 Location: Lindsay Ontario
Re: Burnt! « Result #23 on Jun 18, 2007, 6:39pm »
Lol I'm SO glad Danielle is getting tank top work shirts so not so bad of a farmer tan.
The only killer is that I have a FANTASTIC white watch line. Yup..it's pretty hot lol. Thank god for my cousins wedding I'm allowed to wear a bracelet on that wrist!
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Re: Bored in English Class... « Result #29 on Jun 13, 2007, 3:17pm »
English is really boring... i have fallen asleep more that ones...actually a fell asleep on monday..my bad lol nothing is really going on this week ...just getting projects done this weekend i am doing the schooling show at RCRA...hopeful our second 1st level show goes better than the first
I am done School the 21st YAAAAY than party at my friends on friday
awww lindasy....it didnt look that bad. I got burned too, but on the top of my shoulders and lower arm ...so my upper arm is still white ...and my hands are lighter than my arms because of my riding gloves ....we can look weird together
Re: SPS Show June 23rd « Result #34 on Jun 11, 2007, 10:39am »
well the plan was that me and crusho were going to do the jumpers.....
but I can honestly say I've only jumped him the amount of times that could fit on one had since last june... sooooo. I guess we had better get on that.
Joined: Aug 2005 Gender: Female Posts: 922 Location: ON, Canada
Re: Half Pads « Result #36 on Jun 11, 2007, 9:48am »
I've washed mine twice now and it's cleaned up really nicely! I just wash it with that delicate detergant stuff on the delicate cycle and then let it air dry and fluff it up. Pretty sweet deal!
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Joined: Aug 2005 Gender: Female Posts: 922 Location: ON, Canada
Bored in English Class... « Result #48 on Jun 11, 2007, 9:16am »
Ok so...I'm bored...and in english class. But on the positive end of things there's only a week and a half left of school! So that's good. What's everyone up to this week? Anything exciting? This weekend? We should all have an end of school extravaganza soon, I'll start scheming.
Well you are the one the one that lies close to me Whisper's hello I miss you quite terribly I fell in love, in love with you suddenly Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms...
Joined: Aug 2005 Gender: Female Posts: 1,276 Location: Lindsay Ontario
Re: Long Weekend Plans « Result #49 on May 21, 2007, 8:34pm »
Mine was actually decent. I was reallly worried there for a while.
Friday night, watched The Guardian (it was really good...thoroughly enjoyed it) and than watched Alpha Dogs...what a horrible, horrible movie. Seriously not worth watching at all.
Saturday..had to work..but it was a fairly easy morning at the barn, than I worked at the go-karts. I seriously love that job. I hate pulling kids out of tires and what not but I like my co-workers and my boss! Saturday night...went to a fire thing got smashed....ya most liekyl wasnt my finest moment but definitely wasn't hurting!
Sunday...slept in till like 11..phoned in sick to the track in the morning haha. Than went to the barn stood around because I was to hung to ride and I had to go to the go-kart. Than went to to go karts. Watched movies when I came home.
Today...slept till like 130 haha that's the LATEST I've EVER slept! Than got up and went to work!
Re: Long Weekend Plans « Result #50 on May 21, 2007, 8:25pm »
my LW was fanfreakingtastic.
Friday night, last night of work, left on a really good note with the two bosses who matter, fought with my favorite two coworkers, not a good scene. I'm pretty sure they're just mad that I'm gone, but I'm still angry. I expect apologizes when I go get my pay this week.
Saturday I slept in, rode, watched some hockey (never thought I'd say this but go sens!!) went to my friends house on the lake, drank, drank, and drank some more, went to the pattie house, then my mom picked me and Colin (neighbour) up and drove us home, haha sucka.
Sunday I had MGA's, Crusher was an absolute star 99% of the time best horse on the feild hands down, I was so happy with him. Then he had two minor brain farts that almost killed me, so I beat him up and he continued to be good. 23 games fried his little brain I think.
Sunday night my cousin and his wife came over with their baby (10 weeks old) and his brother came with his son whoes 3 and so cute. So we played with them, had a BBQ and a bonfire, josh had a ton of fireworks as normal so set them off, burnt the xmas tree, etc.
today I helped mom and JL for a bit, and read on the deck, got a sun burn, had a nap hahaha and went and rode crusher.
overall a very successful weekend and I am loving unemployment.